‘You’ve only failed when you cease trying’
Recently, I embarked upon a course to become a legal secretary. I did so with much conviction – once I decide to do something, I’m wholly invested and determined to see it through. However a few weeks in, after knuckling down religiously for several hours every Saturday, I realised (epiphany-style) that it wasn’t for me. Not only was it irrelevant to my current job and career (I’m a PA and Marketing Manager), I was stuffing it into my week desperately between working full time, my family, my boyfriend, social life, other commitments and the gym. Plus writing, of course. I’d bitten off way more than I could chew; and whilst I felt stupid for taking the bull by the horns and making the initial decision with such misguided vigour, I also felt as though I had given up easily. I’d failed. Despite knowing absolutely that this was not the right thing for me, and dreading continuing the course, I felt stupid for having embarked on it so enthusiastically only to find that I was mistaken.
On the phone to the course administrator, unprompted she told me: ‘Don’t feel like you’ve failed. It’s a hard course, you can always come back to it. Draw a line in the sand, keep moving forward and don’t look back.’ Intuitively, she knew how I was feeling and her advice made me realise that by following my heart, I had definitely made the right decision. As soon as I came off the phone, I felt a huge weight lifted from my shoulders.
I’d gone into the course wholeheartedly with the best intentions, and ultimately failed to complete it. Yet in realising it wasn’t for me, I succeeded. I now have more time to write and take care of the blog, my weekends are mine again to relax and spend time with my loved ones. Taking the wrong path made me realise exactly what I want to do and am truly good at – and that is to write.
I believe everything happens for a reason – and I couldn’t be more thankful for that. Next time you’re feeling low or as if you have failed because something didn’t worked out as you had hoped or wished it to; don’t worry. It’s probably a blessing in disguise, guiding you back onto your chosen path!